General

For as long as I can remember, my weight has never been stable.

I'm either in a gaining phase or a losing one. I don't think I ever just stay at a particular weight for very long. Right now I am in gaining mode and going for it. I am hoping that at some point, I get to a weight and just stay there. I don't know what that number is, but it will be a high one.

Does this happen to anybody else?

I don’t think of it as an either or, it’s not you’re either gaining or losing. It’s more so varying degrees of intensity that come and go. I think we like to think of ourselves as these gainers or feedees and some people think of us as such, but the reality is it’s just like anything else sexual it comes and goes. It’s not like all the time we’re horny and want to have loads of sex (ok, maybe some people do) and this is what happens to all larger people as they get bigger, it become a I’m happy and content sometimes other times they wanna be 900 pounds or whatever.